The Hubby Pulls Through!

As I said, I spent the fall of 2006 soul searching.  I cried out to God to show me exactly what HIS plan was for our lives, not just what I wanted.  Try as I may to get rid of the intense desire for another child, I just couldn't do it!  I talked the situation to death with friends and family, and I asked God to close all doors if His plan was only one child for us.  In the end, I just didn't feel like God was saying, "Stop."  I wrestled with this, because I wanted to make sure that this was God's plan for us...not Michelle's.

Occasionally, Jason and I would talk about more children, but the talk always ended the same.  We'd do it IF we had the money. When we bought our house, it had an unfinished upstairs.  In the hopes of having another baby, we finished the upstairs.  It added another bedroom/office ,a huge playroom (which was nice because our living room was beginning to look like a Toys R Us factory), and a bathroom. We kinda felt like Field of Dreams...."if you build it, they will come."  Nice as it was to have this new space, it cost money.  Plus, In Vitro with Harrison cost nearly $28,000.  That is not just a drop in the bucket for two school teachers.  As you can see, money was a big obstacle.  Jason reminded me often that, as much as we wanted to, In Vitro was just not financially possible.  Although I knew he was right, convincing my heart of that was not an easy task.

I was feeling rather helpless and hopeless until that Tuesday afternoon...

Jason told me before school that day that he would be a little later coming home from school.  Usually, I would have questioned where he was going, but, for some reason, I didn't ask.  I wasplaying upstairs with Harrison when he came home that afternoon.  He truly looked like a cat that swallowed a canary!  He had a smirk on his face from ear to ear.  I'll admit that my curiosity was piqued.  He told me he had gone to the credit union to meet with someone to see if there was ANY way we could get the money we needed for another round of In Vitro.  He was told that by refinancing our house payment and adjusting a few things, it was absolutely possible for us to get the money we needed without seriously strapping us. Oh my goodness!  I sat there momentarily before asking any questions, because I was speechless (which is rare for me).

Right then and there, we decided that we were going to do it.  My dreams might actually become a reality....