Let's just say this has been a long time coming. Many people (you know who you are) have urged me to blog about my life. To be honest, this scares me to death, because it will make me remember with clarity the terribly painful times and I wonder, "Why would anyone care about my life?". My hopes are that this blog touches someone, helps someone, or, maybe in the end, is just therapeutic for me! I hope to look back at this blog years from now and see a scrapbook of my life. I am not a professional writer or candid storyteller. I'm just a wife and a mommy with stories to tell. So here it goes.....
Jason and I married in the summer of 2000. It was a perfect day, one I had dreamed of since I was a little girl. We enjoyed married life, but to say I wanted to be a mommy would be a HUGE understatement. I honestly never worried about it happening because I am OCD (I know some of you are laughing at that understatement right now) and had every detail in my timeline mapped out. I would be married and have a baby a couple of years later in March (because that worked out best with school). God must have been laughing at this plan because none of it came to be in this way. After about 4 years of trying unsuccessfully to have a baby, doctors started speaking the words I never wanted to hear....infertility.
Hang on...more to come!
“If you have faith as small as a mustard seed...” Matthew 17:20
Michelle, I am glad that your friends encouraged you to write about your situation. After Sunday School today, I realize how many people have such stories to share. We all need to be more aware of families around us that are struggling, so that we can encourage and love them even more. Know that you are loved and prayed for daily. Sydney still talks about you being such a wonderful teacher. I know that you are a wonderful mother too.....it shows in your children.
ReplyDeleteMelissa Wright
Michelle, I am subscribing to your blog for a couple of reasons. First, I have had the first-hand experience you are about to begin recording as the "I-word" was a shattering and disarming confrontation to two people who wanted little else from life than to be loving parents. Dreams turn to nightmares and disappointment to depression in only a few days of pondering this situation. Secondly, I have been in a relationship with your aunt for approaching three years now, and hopefully, a marriage for us is destiny in our near future, which will make us "family" and I am genuinely interested in you and your story. I look forward to your future blogs and the unfolding of your saga - I share more empathy with you than you might know. Roger Larrison
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